Section 14
Chapter 14 — My Brother Kneels (So Saith Kabir) explained simply
Kim by Rudyard Kipling
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To stone and brass in heathen-wise, But in my brother's voice I hear My own unanswered agonies. His God is as his Fates assign— His prayer is all the world's—and mine. Kabir.
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To stone and brass in heathen-wise,
But in my brother's voice I hear
My own unanswered agonies.
His God is as his Fates assign—
His prayer is all the world's—and mine.
Kabir.
AT moonrise the cautious coolies got under way. The lama, refreshed by
his sleep and the spirit, needed no more than Kim's shoulder to bear him
along—a silent, swift-striding man. They held the shale-sprinkled grass
for an hour, swept round the shoulder of an immortal cliff, and climbed
into a new country entirely blocked off from all sight of Chini valley.
A huge pasture-ground ran up fan-shaped to the living snow. At its base
was perhaps half an acre of flat land, on which stood a few soil and
timber huts. Behind them—for, hill-fashion, they were perched on the
edge of all things—the ground fell sheer two thousand feet to Shamlegh
midden, where never yet man has set foot.
The men made no motion to divide the plunder till they had seen the lama
bedded down in the best room of the place, with Kim shampooing his feet,
Mohammedan fashion.
'We will send food,' said the Ao-chung man, 'and the red-topped kilta.
By dawn there will be none to give evidence, one way or the other. If
anything is not needed in the kilta—see here!'
He pointed through the window—opening into space that was filled with
moonlight reflected from the snow—and threw out an empty whisky-bottle.
'No need to listen for the fall. This is the world's end,' he said, and
swung off. The lama looked forth, a hand on either sill, with eyes that
shone like yellow opals. From the enormous pit before him white peaks
lifted themselves yearning to the moonlight. The rest was as the
darkness of interstellar space.
'These,' he said slowly, 'are indeed my Hills. Thus should a man abide,
perched above the world, separated from delights, considering vast
matters.'
'Yes; if he has a chela to prepare tea for him, and to fold a blanket
for his head, and to chase out calving cows.'
A smoky lamp burned in a niche, but the full moonlight beat it down; and
by the mixed light, stooping above the food-bag and cups, Kim moved like
a tall ghost.
'Ai! But now I have let the blood cool my head still beats and drums,
and there is a cord round the back of my neck.'
'No wonder. It was a strong blow. May he who dealt it—'
'But for my own passions there would have been no evil.'
'What evil? Thou hast saved the Sahibs from death they deserved a
hundred times.'
'The lesson is not well learnt, chela.' The lama came to rest on a
folded blanket, as Kim went forward with his evening routine. 'The blow
was but a shadow upon a shadow. Evil in itself—my legs weary apace
these latter days!—it met evil in me—anger, rage, and a lust to return
evil. These wrought in my blood, woke tumult in my stomach, and dazzled
my ears.' Here he drank scalding black-tea ceremonially, taking the hot
cup from Kim's hand. 'Had I been passionless, the evil blow would have
done only bodily evil—a scar, or a bruise—which is illusion. But my
mind was not abstracted, for rushed in straightway a lust to let the
Spiti men kill. In fighting that lust, my soul was torn and wrenched
beyond a thousand blows. Not till I had repeated the Blessings (he meant
the Buddhist Beatitudes) did I achieve calm. But the evil planted in me
by that moment's carelessness works out to its end. Just is the Wheel,
swerving not a hair! Learn the lesson, chela.'
'It is too high for me,' Kim muttered. 'I am still all shaken. I am glad
I hurt the man.'
'I felt that sleeping upon thy knees, in the wood below. It disquieted
me in my dreams—the evil in thy soul working through to mine. Yet on
the other hand'—he loosed his rosary—'I have acquired merit by saving
two lives—the lives of those that wronged me. Now I must see into the
Cause of Things. The boat of my soul staggers.'
'Sleep, and be strong. That is wisest.'
'I meditate: there is a need greater than thou knowest.'
Till the dawn, hour after hour, as the moonlight paled on the high
peaks, and that which had been belted blackness on the sides of the far
hills showed as tender green forest, the lama stared fixedly at the
wall. From time to time he groaned. Outside the barred door, where
discomfited kine came to ask for their old stable, Shamlegh and the
coolies gave itself up to plunder and riotous living. The Ao-chung man
was their leader, and once they had opened the Sahibs' tinned foods and
found that they were very good they dared not turn back. Shamlegh
kitchen-midden took the dunnage.
When Kim, after a night of bad dreams, stole forth to brush his teeth in
the morning chill, a fair-coloured woman with turquoise-studded headgear
drew him aside.
'The others have gone. They left thee this kilta as the promise was. I
do not love Sahibs, but thou wilt make us a charm in return for it. We
do not wish little Shamlegh to get a bad name on account of
the—accident. I am the Woman of Shamlegh.' She looked him over with
bold, bright eyes, unlike the usual furtive glance of hillwomen.
'Assuredly. But it must be done in secret.'
She raised the heavy kilta like a toy and slung it into her own hut.
'Out and bar the door! Let none come near till it is finished.'
'But afterwards—we may talk?'
Kim tilted the kilta on the floor—a cascade of Survey-instruments,
books, diaries, letters, maps, and queerly scented, native
correspondence. At the very bottom was an embroidered bag covering a
sealed, gilded, and illuminated document such as one King sends to
another. Kim caught his breath with delight, and reviewed the situation
from a Sahib's point of view.
'The books I do not want. Besides, they are logarithms—Survey, I
suppose.' He laid them aside. 'The letters I do not understand, but
Colonel Creighton will. They must all be kept. The maps—they draw
better maps than me—of course. All the native letters—oho!—and
particularly the murasla.' He sniffed the embroidered bag. 'That must be
from Hilas or Bunar, and Hurree Babu spoke truth. By Jove! It is a fine
haul. I wish Hurree could know. . . . The rest must go out of the window.'
He fingered a superb prismatic compass and the shiny top of a
theodolite. But after all, a Sahib cannot very well steal, and the
things might be inconvenient evidence later. He sorted out every scrap
of manuscript, every map, and the native letters. They made one softish
slab. The three locked ferril-backed books, with five worn pocket-books,
he put aside.
'The letters and the murasla I must carry inside my coat and under my
belt, and the hand-written books I must put into the food-bag. It will
be very heavy. No. I do not think there is anything more. If there is,
the coolies have thrown it down the khud, so thatt is all right. Now you
go too.' He repacked the kilta with all he meant to lose, and hove it up
on to the window-sill. A thousand feet below lay a long, lazy,
round-shouldered bank of mist, as yet untouched by the morning sun. A
thousand feet below that was an hundred-year-old pine-forest. He could
see the green tops looking like a bed of moss when a wind-eddy thinned
the cloud.
'No! I don't think any one will go after you!'
The wheeling basket vomited its contents as it dropped. The theodolite
hit a jutting cliff-ledge and exploded like a shell; the books,
inkstand, paint-boxes, compasses, and rulers showed for a few seconds
like a swarm of bees. Then they vanished; and, though Kim, hanging half
out of window, strained his young ears, never a sound came up from the
gulf.
'Five hundred—a thousand rupees could not buy them,' he thought
sorrowfully. 'It was verree wasteful, but I have all their other
stuff—everything they did—I hope. Now how the deuce am I to tell
Hurree Babu, and whatt the deuce am I to do? And my old man is sick. I
must tie up the letters in oilcloth. That is something to do first—else
they will get all sweated. . . . And I am all alone!' He bound them into
a neat packet, swedging down the stiff, sticky oilcloth at the corners,
for his roving life had made him as methodical as an old hunter in
matters of the road. Then with double care he packed away the books at
the bottom of the food-bag.
The woman rapped at the door.
'But thou hast made no charm,' she said, looking about.
'There is no need.' Kim had completely overlooked the necessity for a
little patter-talk. The woman laughed at his confusion irreverently.
'None—for thee. Thou canst cast a spell by the mere winking of an eye.
But think of us poor people when thou art gone! They were all too drunk
last night to hear a woman. Thou art not drunk?'
'I am a priest.' Kim had recovered himself, and, the woman being aught
but unlovely, thought best to stand on his office.
'I warned them that the Sahibs will be angry and will make an
inquisition and a report to the Rajah. There is also the Babu with them.
Clerks have long tongues.'
'Is that all thy trouble?' The plan rose fully formed in Kim's mind, and
he smiled ravishingly.
'Not all,' quoth the woman, putting out a hard brown hand all covered
with turquoises set in silver.
'I can finish that in a breath,' he went on quickly. 'The Babu is the
very hakim (thou hast heard of him?) who was wandering among the hills
by Ziglaur. I know him.'
'He will tell for the sake of a reward. Sahibs cannot distinguish one
hillman from another, but Babus have eyes for men—and women.'
'Carry a word to him from me.'
'There is nothing I would not do for thee.'
He accepted the compliment calmly, as men must in lands where women make
the love, tore a leaf from a note-book, and with a patent indelible
pencil wrote in gross Shikast—the script that bad little boys use when
they write dirt on walls: 'I have everything that they have written:
their pictures of the country, and many letters. Especially the murasla.
Tell me what to do. I am at Shamlegh-under-the-Snow. The old man is
sick.'
'Take this to him. It will altogether shut his mouth. He cannot have
gone far.'
'Indeed no. They are still in the forest across the spur. Our children
went to watch them when the light came, and have cried the news as they
moved.'
Kim looked his astonishment; but from the edge of the sheep-pasture
floated a shrill, kite-like trill. A child tending cattle had picked it
up from a brother or sister on the far side of the slope that commanded
Chini valley.
'My husbands are also out there gathering wood.' She drew a handful of
walnuts from her bosom, split one neatly, and began to eat. Kim affected
blank ignorance.
'Dost thou not know the meaning of the walnut—priest?' she said coyly,
and handed him the half-shells.
'Well thought of.' He slipped the piece of paper between them quickly.
'Hast thou a little wax to close them on this letter?'
The woman sighed aloud, and Kim relented.
'There is no payment till service has been rendered. Carry this to the
Babu, and say it was sent by the Son of the Charm.'
'Ai! Truly! Truly! By a magician—who is like a Sahib.'
'Nay, Son of the Charm: and ask if there be any answer.'
'But if he offer a rudeness? I—I am afraid.'
Kim laughed. 'He is, I have no doubt, very tired and very hungry. The
Hills make cold bedfellows. Hai, my'—it was on the tip of his tongue to
say Mother, but he turned it to Sister—'thou art a wise and witty
woman. By this time all the villages know what has befallen the
Sahibs—eh?'
'True. News was at Ziglaur by midnight, and by to-morrow should be at
Kotgarh. The villages are both afraid and angry.'
'No need. Tell the villages to feed the Sahibs and pass them on, in
peace. We must get them quietly away from our valleys. To steal is one
thing—to kill another. The Babu will understand, and there will be no
after-complaints. Be swift. I must tend my master when he wakes.'
'So be it. After service—thou hast said?—comes the reward. I am the
Woman of Shamlegh, and I hold from the Rajah. I am no common bearer of
babes. Shamlegh is thine: hoof and horn and hide, milk and butter. Take
or leave.'
She turned resolutely uphill, her silver necklaces clicking on her broad
breast, to meet the morning sun fifteen hundred feet above them. This
time Kim thought in the vernacular as he waxed down the oilskin edges of
the packets.
'How can a man follow the Way or the Great Game when he is eternally
pestered by women? There was that girl at Akrola by the Ford; and there
was the scullion's wife behind the dovecot—not counting the others—and
now comes this one! When I was a child it was well enough, but now I am
a man and they will not regard me as a man. Walnuts indeed! Ho! ho! It
is almonds in the Plains!'
He went out to levy on the village—not with a begging-bowl, which might
do for down-country, but in the manner of a prince. Shamlegh's summer
population is only three families—four women and eight or nine men.
They were all full of tinned meats and mixed drinks, from ammoniated
quinine to white vodka, for they had taken their full share in the
overnight loot. The neat Continental tents had been cut up and shared
long ago, and there were patent aluminum saucepans abroad.
But they considered the lama's presence a perfect safeguard against all
consequences, and impenitently brought Kim of their best—even to a
drink of chang—the barley-beer that comes from Ladakh-way. Then they
thawed out in the sun, and sat with their legs hanging over infinite
abysses, chattering, laughing, and smoking. They judged India and its
Government solely from their experience of wandering Sahibs who had
employed them or their friends as shikarris. Kim heard tales of shots
missed upon ibex, serow, or markhor, by Sahibs twenty years in their
graves—every detail lighted from behind like twigs on tree-tops seen
against lightning. They told him of their little diseases, and, more
important, the diseases of their tiny, sure-footed cattle; of trips as
far as Kotgarh, where the strange missionaries live, and beyond even to
marvellous Simla, where the streets are paved with silver, and any one,
look you, can get service with the Sahibs, who ride about in two-wheeled
carts and spend money with a spade. Presently, grave and aloof, walking
very heavily, the lama joined himself to the chatter under the eaves,
and they gave him great room. The thin air refreshed him, and he sat on
the edge of precipices with the best of them, and, when talk languished,
flung pebbles into the void. Thirty miles away, as the eagle flies, lay
the next range, seamed and channelled and pitted with little patches of
brush—forests, each a day's dark march. Behind the village, Shamlegh
hill itself cut off all view to southward. It was like sitting in a
swallow's nest under the eaves of the roof of the world.
From time to time the lama stretched out his hand, and with a little,
low-voiced prompting would point out the road to Spiti and north across
the Parungla.
'Beyond, where the hills lie thickest, lies De-ch'en' (he meant Han-le),
'the great Monastery. s'Tag-stanras-ch'en built it, and of him there
runs this tale.' Whereupon he told it: a fantastic piled narrative of
bewitchment and miracles that set Shamlegh agasping. Turning west a
little, he speered for the green hills of Kulu, and sought Kailung under
the glaciers. 'For thither came I in the old, old days. From Leh I
came; over the Baralachi.'
'Yes, yes; we know it,' said the far-faring people of Shamlegh.
'And I slept two nights with the priests of Kailung. These are the hills
of my delight! Shadows blessed above all other shadows! There my eyes
opened on this world; there my eyes were opened to this world; there I
found Enlightenment; and there I girt my loins for my Search. Out of the
Hills I came—the high Hills and the strong winds. Oh, just is the
Wheel!' He blessed them in detail—the great glaciers, the naked rocks,
the piled moraines and tumbled shale; dry upland, hidden salt-lake,
age-old timber and fruitful water-shot valley one after the other, as a
dying man blesses his folk, and Kim marvelled at his passion.
'Yes—yes. There is no place like our Hills,' said the people of
Shamlegh. And they fell to wondering how a man could live in the hot
terrible Plains where the cattle run as big as elephants, unfit to
plough on a hillside; where village touches village, they had heard, for
a hundred miles; where folk went about stealing in gangs, and what the
robbers spared the Police carried utterly away.
So the still forenoon wore through, and at the end of it Kim's messenger
dropped from the steep pasture as unbreathed as when she had set out.
'I sent a word to the hakim,' Kim explained, while she made reverence.
'He joined himself to the idolaters? Nay, I remember he did a healing
upon one of them. He has acquired merit, though the healed employed his
strength for evil. Just is the Wheel! What of the hakim?'
'I feared that thou hadst been bruised and—and I knew he was wise.' Kim
took the waxed walnut-shell and read in English on the back of his note:
'Your favour received. Cannot get away from present company at present,
but shall take them into Simla. After which, hope to rejoin you.
Inexpedient to follow angry gentlemen. Return by same road you came, and
will overtake. Highly gratified about correspondence due to my
forethought.' 'He says, Holy One, that he will escape from the
idolaters, and will return to us. Shall we wait awhile at Shamlegh,
then?'
The lama looked long and lovingly upon the hills and shook his head.
'That may not be, chela. From my bones outward I do desire it, but it is
forbidden. I have seen the Cause of Things.'
'Why? When the Hills give thee back thy strength day by day? Remember we
were weak and fainting down below there in the Doon.'
'I became strong to do evil and to forget. A brawler and a swashbuckler
upon the hillsides was I.' Kim bit back a smile. 'Just and perfect is
the Wheel, swerving not a hair. When I was a man—a long time ago—I did
pilgrimage to Guru Ch'wan among the poplars' (he pointed Bhotanwards),
'where they keep the Sacred Horse.'
'Quiet, be quiet!' said Shamlegh, all arow. 'He speaks of
Jam-lin-nin-k'or, the Horse That Can Go Round The World In a Day.'
'I speak to my chela only,' said the lama, in gentle reproof, and they
scattered like frost on south eaves of a morning. 'I did not seek truth
in those days, but the talk of doctrine. All illusion! I drank the beer
and ate the bread of Guru Ch'wan. Next day one said: "We go out to
fight Sangor Gutok down the valley to discover (mark again how Lust is
tied to Anger!) which abbot shall bear rule in the valley, and take the
profit of the prayers they print at Sangor Gutok." I went, and we fought
a day.'
'But how, Holy One?'
'With our long pencases as I could have shown. . . . I say, we fought
under the poplars, both abbots and all the monks, and one laid open my
forehead to the bone. See!' He tilted back his cap and showed a puckered
silvery scar. 'Just and perfect is the Wheel! Yesterday the scar itched,
and after fifty years I recalled how it was dealt and the face of him
who dealt it; dwelling a little in illusion. Followed that which thou
didst see—strife and stupidity. Just is the Wheel! The idolater's blow
fell upon the scar. Then I was shaken in my soul: my soul was darkened,
and the boat of my soul rocked upon the waters of illusion. Not till I
came to Shamlegh could I meditate upon the Cause of Things, or trace the
running grass-roots of Evil. I strove all the long night.'
'But, Holy One, thou art innocent of all evil. May I be thy sacrifice!'
Kim was genuinely distressed at the old man's sorrow, and Mahbub Ali's
phrase slipped out unawares.
'In the dawn,' he went on more gravely, ready rosary clicking between
the slow sentences, 'came enlightenment. It is here. . . . I am an old
man . . . hill-bred, hill-fed, never to sit down among my Hills. Three
years I travelled through Hind, but—can earth be stronger than Mother
Earth? My stupid body yearned to the Hills and the snow of the Hills,
from below there. I said, and it is true, my Search is sure. So, at the
Kulu woman's house I turned hillward, over-persuaded by myself. There is
no blame to the hakim. He—following Desire—foretold that the Hills
would make me strong. They strengthened me to do evil, to forget my
Search. I delighted in life and the lust of life. I desired strong
slopes to climb. I cast about to find them. I measured the strength of
my body, which is evil, against the high hills. I made a mock of thee
when thy breath came short under Jamnotri. I jested when thou wouldst
not face the snow of the pass.'
'But what harm? I was afraid. It was just. I am not a hillman; and I
loved thee for thy new strength.'
'More than once I remember,' he rested his cheek dolefully on his hand,
'I sought thy praise and the hakim's for the mere strength of my legs.
Thus evil followed evil till the cup was full. Just is the Wheel! All
Hind for three years did me all honour. From the Fountain of Wisdom in
the Wonder House to'—he smiled—'a little child playing by a big
gun—the world prepared my road. And why?'
'Because we loved thee. It is only the fever of the blow. I myself am
still sick and shaken.'
'No! It was because I was upon the Way—tuned as are sinen (cymbals) to
the purpose of the Law. I departed from that ordinance. The tune was
broken: followed the punishment. In my own Hills, on the edge of my own
country, in the very place of my evil desire, comes the buffet—here!'
(He touched his brow.) 'As a novice is beaten when he misplaces the
cups, so am I beaten, who was Abbot of Suchzen. No word, look you, but a
blow, chela.'
'But the Sahibs did not know thee, Holy One?'
'We were well matched. Ignorance and Lust met Ignorance and Lust upon
the road, and they begat Anger. The blow was a sign to me, who am no
better than a strayed yak, that my place is not here. Who can read the
Cause of an act is half-way to Freedom! "Back to the path," says the
Blow. "The Hills are not for thee. Thou canst not choose Freedom and go
in bondage to the delight of life."'
'If we had never met that thrice-cursed Russian!'
'Our Lord Himself cannot make the Wheel swing backward. And for my merit
that I had acquired I gain yet another sign.' He put his hand in his
bosom, and drew forth the Wheel of Life. 'Look! I considered this after
I had meditated. There remains untorn by the idolater no more than the
breadth of my finger-nail.'
'I see.'
'So much, then, is the span of my life in this body. I have served the
Wheel all my days. Now the Wheel serves me. But for the merit I have
acquired in guiding thee upon the Way, there would have been added to me
yet another life ere I had found my River. Is it plain, chela?'
Kim stared at the brutally disfigured chart. From left to right
diagonally the rent ran—from the Eleventh House where Desire gives
birth to the Child (as it is drawn by Tibetans)—across the human and
animal worlds, to the Fifth House—the empty House of the Senses. The
logic was unanswerable.
'Before our Lord won enlightenment,' the lama folded all away with
reverence, 'He was tempted. I too have been tempted, but it is finished.
The Arrow fell in the Plains—not in the Hills. Therefore, what make we
here?'
'Shall we at least wait for the hakim?'
'I know how long I live in this body. What can a hakim do?'
'But thou art all sick and shaken. Thou canst not walk.'
'How can I be sick if I see Freedom?' He rose unsteadily to his feet.
'Then I must get food from the village. Oh, the weary Road!' Kim felt
that he too needed rest.
'That is lawful. Let us eat and go. The Arrow fell in Plains . . . but
I yielded to Desire. Make ready, chela.'
Kim turned to the woman with the turquoise headgear who had been idly
pitching pebbles over the cliff. She smiled very kindly.
'I found him like a strayed buffalo in a corn-field—the Babu; snorting
and sneezing with cold. He was so hungry that he forgot his dignity and
gave me sweet words. The Sahibs have nothing.' She flung out an empty
palm. 'One is very sick about the stomach. Thy work?'
Kim nodded, with a bright eye.
'I spoke to the Bengali first—and to the people of a nearby village
after. The Sahibs will be given food as they need it—nor will the
people ask money. The plunder is already distributed. That Babu makes
lying speeches to the Sahibs. Why does he not leave them?'
'Out of the greatness of his heart.'
''Was never a Bengali yet had one bigger than a dried walnut. But it is
no matter. . . . Now as to walnuts. After service comes reward. I have
said the village is thine.'
'It is my loss,' Kim began. 'Even now I had planned desirable things in
my heart which'—there is no need to go through the compliments proper
to these occasions. He sighed deeply . . . 'But my master, led by a
vision—'
'Huh! What can old eyes see except a full begging-bowl?'
'—turns from this village to the Plains again.'
'Bid him stay.'
Kim shook his head. 'I know my Holy One, and his rage if he be crossed,'
he replied impressively. 'His curses shake the Hills.'
'Pity they did not save him from a broken head! I heard that thou wast
the tiger-hearted one who smote the Sahib. Let him dream a little
longer. Stay!'
'Hillwoman,' said Kim, with austerity that could not harden the outlines
of his young oval face, 'these matters are too high for thee.'
'The Gods be good to us! Since when have men and women been other than
men and women?'
'A priest is a priest. He says he will go upon this hour. I am his
chela, and I go with him. We need food for the Road. He is an honoured
guest in all the villages, but'—he broke into a pure boyish grin—'the
food here is good. Give me some.'
'What if I do not give it thee? I am the woman of this village.'
'Then I curse thee—a little—not greatly, but enough to remember.' He
could not help smiling.
'Thou hast cursed me already by the down-dropped eyelash and the
uplifted chin. Curses? What should I care for mere words?' She clenched
her hands upon her bosom. . . . 'But I would not have thee to go in
anger, thinking hardly of me—a gatherer of cow-dung and grass at
Shamlegh, but still a woman of substance.'
'I think nothing,' said Kim, 'but that I am grieved to go, for I am very
tired, and that we need food. Here is the bag.'
The woman snatched it angrily. 'I was foolish,' said she. 'Who is thy
woman in the Plains? Fair or black? I was fair once. Laughest thou?
Once, long ago, if thou canst believe, a Sahib looked on me with favour.
Once, long ago, I wore European clothes at the Mission-house yonder.'
She pointed towards Kotgarh. 'Once, long ago, I was Ker-lis-ti-an and
spoke English—as the Sahibs speak it. Yes. My Sahib said he would
return and wed me—yes, wed me. He went away—I had nursed him when he
was sick—but he never returned. Then I saw that the Gods of the
Kerlistians lied, and I went back to my own people. . . . I have never
set eyes on a Sahib since. (Do not laugh at me. The fit is past, little
priestling.) Thy face and thy walk and thy fashion of speech put me in
mind of my Sahib, though thou art only a wandering mendicant to whom I
give a dole. Curse me? Thou canst neither curse nor bless!' She set her
hands on her hips and laughed bitterly. 'Thy Gods are lies; thy works
are lies; thy words are lies. There are no Gods under all the heavens. I
know it. . . . But for a while I thought it was my Sahib come back, and
he was my God. Yes, once I made music on a pianno in the Mission-house
at Kotgarh. Now I give alms to priests who are heatthen.' She wound up
with the English word, and tied the mouth of the brimming bag.
'I wait for thee, chela,' said the lama, leaning against the door-post.
The woman swept the tall figure with her eyes. 'He walk? He cannot cover
half a mile. Whither would old bones go?'
At this Kim, already perplexed by the lama's collapse, and foreseeing
the weight of the bag, fairly lost his temper.
'What is it to thee, woman of ill-omen, where he goes?'
'Nothing—but something to thee, priest with a Sahib's face. Wilt thou
carry him on thy shoulders?'
'I go to the Plains. None must hinder my return. I have wrestled with my
soul till I am strengthless. The stupid body is spent, and we are far
from the Plains.'
'Behold!' she said simply, and drew aside to let Kim see his own utter
helplessness. 'Curse me. May be it will give him strength. Make a charm!
Call on thy great God. Thou art a priest.' She turned away.
The lama had squatted limply, still holding by the door-post. One cannot
strike down an old man that he recovers again like a boy in a night.
Weakness bowed him to the earth, but his eyes that hung on Kim were
alive and imploring.
'It is all well,' said Kim. 'It is the thin air that weakens thee. In a
little while we go! It is the mountain-sickness. I too am a little sick
at stomach,' . . . and he knelt and comforted with such poor words as
came first to his lips. Then the woman returned, more erect than ever.
'Thy Gods useless, heh? Try mine. I am the Woman of Shamlegh.' She
hailed hoarsely, and there came out of a cow-pen her two husbands and
three others with a dooli, the rude native litter of the Hills, that
they use for carrying the sick and for visits of state. 'These cattle,'
she did not condescend to look at them, 'are thine for so long as thou
shalt need.'
'But we will not go Simla-way. We will not go near the Sahibs,' cried
the first husband.
'They will not run away as the others did, nor will they steal baggage.
Two I know for weaklings. Stand to the rear-pole, Sonoo and Taree.' They
obeyed swiftly. 'Lower now, and lift in that holy man. I will see to the
village and your virtuous wives till ye return.'
'When will that be?'
'Ask the priests. Do not pester me. Lay the food-bag at the foot, it
balances better so.'
'Oh, Holy One, thy Hills are kinder than our Plains!' cried Kim,
relieved, as the lama tottered to the litter. 'It is a very king's
bed—a place of honour and ease. And we owe it to—'
'A woman of ill-omen. I need thy blessings as much as I do thy curses.
It is my order and none of thine. Lift and away! Here! Hast thou money
for the road?'
She beckoned Kim to her hut, and stooped above a battered English
cash-box under her cot.
'I do not need anything,' said Kim, angered where he should have been
grateful. 'I am already rudely loaded with favours.'
She looked up with a curious smile and laid a hand on his shoulder. 'At
least, thank me. I am foul-faced and a hillwoman, but, as thy talk goes,
I have acquired merit. Shall I show thee how the Sahibs render thanks?'
and her hard eyes softened.
'I am but a wandering priest,' said Kim, his eyes lighting in answer.
'Thou needest neither my blessings nor my curses.'
'Nay. But for one little moment—thou canst overtake the dooli in ten
strides—if thou wast a Sahib, shall I show thee what thou wouldst do?'
'How if I guess, though?' said Kim, and putting his arm round her waist,
he kissed her on the cheek, adding in English: 'Thank you verree much,
my dear.'
Kissing is practically unknown among Asiatics, which may have been the
reason that she leaned back with wide-open eyes and a face of panic.
'Next time,' Kim went on, 'you must not be so sure of your heatthen
priests. Now I say good-bye.' He held out his hand English-fashion. She
took it mechanically. 'Good-bye, my dear.'
'Good-bye, and—and'—she was remembering her English words one by
one—'you will come back again? Good-bye, and—thee God bless you.'
Half an hour later, as the creaking litter jolted up the hill path that
leads south-easterly from Shamlegh, Kim saw a tiny figure at the hut
door waving a white rag.
'She has acquired merit beyond all others,' said the lama. 'For to set a
man upon the way to Freedom is half as great as though she had herself
found it.'
'Umm,' said Kim thoughtfully, considering the past. 'It may be that I
have acquired merit also. . . . At least she did not treat me like a
child.' He hitched the front of his robe, where lay the slab of
documents and maps, restowed the precious food-bag at the lama's feet,
laid his hand on the litter edge, and buckled down to the slow pace of
the grunting husbands.
'These also acquire merit,' said the lama, after three miles.
'More than that, they shall be paid in silver,' quoth Kim. The Woman of
Shamlegh had given it to him; and it was only fair, he argued, that her
men should earn it back again.
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What happens here
Chapter 14 — My Brother Kneels (So Saith Kabir) continues Kim, focusing on identity, travel, apprenticeship, empire, observation, loyalty, and secrecy. The chapter moves the reader through a specific pressure, choice, or change in the story.
Why this scene matters
This section matters because it shows one part of Kim's larger pattern: identity, travel, apprenticeship, empire, observation, loyalty, and secrecy. Reading the situation first makes the older prose easier to follow.
Characters in this scene
- Main characters: The people whose choices carry this part of Kim.
- Family or social world: The relationships, class pressures, rules, or expectations shaping the chapter.
- Narrative pressure: The conflict, secret, desire, or consequence that keeps this section moving.